i'm falling for you i feel for you damn it get the song out of my head
no class tommrow! i'm so happy about that i really need a break from all this school stuff. i'm making dinner right now chicken alfredo actully...im cheating and using the microwave because i'm tired. i feel weird talking about my friends in this since anyone could read it but that's alright i supose. i think i'm going to go to emma's house on thursday night and crash on her floor so that will be cool me and her are always really loud when were together but we meet new people easier and since i'm typically shy that's pretty good for me. i'm getting better at the whole talking to people thing tho...and once and a while i tend to run into people that i feel comfertable around so i can talk to them more easily. i'm so tired today it's crazy i was fine until work/class but now i'm like half dead. now that i think of it if anyone reads this they must be pretty bored because it's basiclly me going on about nothing. i have "falling for you" by student rick stuck in my head...maybe i'll watch my victory records video tonight so i can see that video agian. emma's going out with this guy corey now that's cool she likes him a lot but he's got a kid i don't know that would freak me out but yet it's her choice not mine. damn i'm bored if any of my friends are reading this and have a car how about driving down here and doing something with me so i'm not just doing nothing all night i don't care if it's 11:10 it's still early....
Posted at 11:05 pm by xbrokendreamsx
nothing really just bored
yay! i get a ride to work today...actully it stoped raining so it wouldn't have been so bad but still it gives me more time just to hang out and do nothing. I talked to brian for a little while this morning that was cool, only for like five minutes though because he was going to work. i'm not sure if joe is going to come down with him this time or another time but he told ashlee he was going to try to come down, it's fine with me i just need to know when people are coming here. i have no idea how i'm cold right now i have my hatebreed hoodie on and it's really warm but for some reason i'm still cold. oh well though. i have class tonight so it's another night i won't be home until 9:15ish or so. i don't mind the class i'm taking tonight the only downside is i finally finished all my work for this week and now i get another set of assinments today. I've been thinking a lot but i don't want to write exactly what i've been thinking because of the people who could read this. ah i hate this though i want to say everything on my mind right now and i have no where to really begin.
"and I realize that empty words are not enough
Im left here with the question of just
what have I to show except the promise I never kept?
I lie here shaking on this bed, under the weight of my regrets
Posted at 12:29 pm by xbrokendreamsx
pointless survey i found because i'm bored.....
[my name is]: Katherine Elizabeth Rigley...but in simple words just Kate
[in the morning i am]: useally pretty awake, i don't do much in the mornings but today i'm tired
[love is]: 20 minutes in the back of my car...haha nah i'm just kidding i don't really know what it is i'm not good at being descriptive about this stuff. also i'm trying to be as non-cynical about it as i can :)
[i dream about]: being an 80's metal rockstar!
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: personality...what they are doing like it co-insides with looks but it's not like being attractive or anything gets me to really notice a guy. if i see someone who looks like he'd be interesting to talk to then i may talk to him or someone with that whole shy look type thing to them just for no real reason.
[last person u slow danced with]: man this was a while ago...i think it was this guy andrew but i don't know the last time i went to a dance and actully slow danced with someone was sphomore year i think.
-W H O-
[do you have a crush on?]: the guy from the cure robert smith is pretty :) as well as bret micheals and cc deville oh and the guy from the all american rejects.
[easiest to talk to]: it all depends on the subject, most of my friends are realitvly easy to talk to
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: yeah well something like that but that was a while ago.
-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: hmm...i beleive it was ashlee
[hugged]: uh emma hugged me at work yesterday for no real reason
[you instant messaged]: let's see...i'm on AIM now but no one's on so last night i think the last person i talked to before i went to bed was mike
[you laughed with]: mike again
-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[could you live without the computer?]: i could but i wouldn't want to
[what's your favorite food?]: chicken alfredo is pretty good
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: kiwi's or peaches
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: emotional (there's the emo side of me) i have a pretty high tolerance of physical pain
[trust others way too easily?]: actully no, i've been screwed over a lot so i don't trust people right off.
-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: aside from the times i've broken up with a guy or vice virsa when it really wasn't going anywheres i think there's probally been two times that have really made me upset but oh well.
[of hearts i have broken?] : one or two, actully i think only one and that was four or so years ago and i still feel bad about it.
[of boys i have kissed?] : i don't know, don't keep track
[of girls i have kissed?] : none
[of drugs taken illegally?] : how many? i don't know a few different things, it was a while ago
[of tight friends?] : 6
[of cd's that i own?] : litterly over 300, i love music.
[of scars on my body?] : one on my wrist, one on my knee and i may have more but there little
[of things in my past that i regret?] : i really don't need to feel all nostalgic and emo kid like today so i don't think i'm even going to get into this one.
-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.-
[i know]: that emo is an addiction and the hatebreed/madball show was great
[i want]: new headphones...and...
[i have]: a kudos bar right now and orange soda pretty good breakfast huh?
[i wish]: i was at another concert right now or hanging out with friends
[i hate]: ignorance in genral, people that aren't nice, rascism, homophobic people, crickets
[i miss]: all my friends in other states, greg, andrew, brian ect...
[i fear]: needles
[i hear]: "hands down" by dashboard confessional but it's soon going to be this really amazing song by thirce that i just found last night just haven't gotten around to openeing kazza
[i search]: for my cds, i always loose them i supose if i felt like being more deep i could talk about other things but it's too early for deep thinking
[i love]: everyone :) well not everyone but i'm in a good mood today
[i ache]: my back still hurts from getting slammed into this metal thing when i was moshing at hatebreed...oh well though it sounds like mike got more hurt then i did.
[i care]: way too much, i'm really empathtic witch is both a good and a bad thing
[i always]: like to laugh or just have fun or play my guitar i love that thing i can play cool 80's metal style solos :)
[i dance]: all the time, i'm not saying i'm good at it but i love it and if anyone else will dance with me and not care about making an idiot of themselves then they are pretty damn cool
[i cry]: hardly every
[i do not always]: say what i'm thinking or let people know how i feel
[i write]: songs, lyrics, poems, letters, email, lots of stuff
[i confuse]: oh i'm sure nearly everyone has been confused by me at some point or another
[i can usually be found]: wondering around outside or at my computer or at a local concert
[i need]: to take a shower and such
[have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing]: haha no i haven't
[if so, when and with who]: n/a
[favorite place to be kissed?]: lips is good i know it's boring but i'm a hopeless romantic so....
[have you ever been caught "doing something"]: haha lets just not get into this...it was nothing extreeme or anything
[wuss]: sure...
[druggie]: i'm straight edge
[gang member]: not one of them but i've done graffiti for some
[daydreamer]: yup that's me pretty much all the time
[alcoholic]: nah i'm straight edge
[freak]: all depends on your defention of freak
[brat]: a few names of kids i work with come to mind on this one haha actully i like all the kids i work with
[sarcastic]: that's me a lot of the time
[goody-goody]: nope not really at least i guess i could be if i wanted to be but i don't really think about it
[angel]: ...of death great slayer song
[devil]: someone once called me the devil before that was funny
[friend]: got lots of them, only a few really mean a lot though
[shy]: i'm kind of shy at first i never know what to say
[talkative]: when i'm around emma i'm pretty talkitive
[adventurous]: yup that would be me
[intelligent]: i can be when i want to be and it depends on the subject for example i know pretty much nothing about cars but i know a lot about philosphy
-Concerning.The.Friends.(You.Claim.To.Have)-
[impacted you the most spiritually]: no one really, most of my friends don't have a religon and the ones who do don't really talk about it
[wish you saw more often]: anyone that doesn't live in middlebury
[wish you could meet]: i don't know because if their my friends then i've already met them
[most sarcastic]: me and jessica
[wish you knew better]: mike and graham...just met mike and just started talking to graham again at saturday's show
[knows you best]: brian or jessica, they've known me the longest
[best outlook on life]: just doing things the way you want and not being so concerened with what happens next
[most paranoid]: jessica probally or at least that's what she says
[sweetest]: lots of people :) i don't want to name everyone
-Self-Analysis.You.Probably.Don't.Want.To.Do-
[your best feature (personality)]: sense of humor? i don't know really
[your biggest flaw (personality)]: i can be thinking something and be dying to tell a person how i feel and i won't be able to because i don't open up to people easily
[most annoying thing you do]: i don't know you'd have to ask my friends
[biggest mistake you've made this far]: messing up something that i thought meant nothing
[describe your personality in one word]: crazy
[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented]: hmmm....people have said stuff about my eyes a lot so i'll go with that
[person you regret sleeping with]: n/a
[height]: 5'5
[a smell that makes you smile]: raluph lauren cologne
[a city you'd like to visit]: seatlle or vince beach CA
[a drink you order most often]: rootbeer
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[a delicious dessert]: mudpie
[a book you highly recommend]: 1984, wicked prayer, beyond good and evil
[the music you prefer while alone]: depends on my mood i'm listening to anthrax and dashboard confessional a lot lately
[your favorite band]: nirvana, the clash, poison, slayer, antrhax, brand new, thursday, taking back sunday, thrice, dokken....
[a film you could watch over and over]: the crow
[a TV show you watch regularly]: dead like me
[you live in a(n)]: a house
[your transportation]: bike
[your cologne or perfume]: this cool waters stuff that i actully ran out of :(
[under your bed or in your closet you hide]: i don't want to know whats under my bed
[something important on your night table]: the only thing that's next to my bed is my cell phone
Posted at 10:29 am by xbrokendreamsx
i just woke up a little while ago, still somewhat tired and i'm really hoping we have hot water today so that i can take a shower. i can take a shower without it but it's cold today so i don't really want to. i have class again tonight grrr it's a great class but honsetly i just want to go home tonight. brian said he's going to come down on the 23rd...well he said the 22nd at like 2:30 in the morning but we were talking and i don't know what he decided on. i don't really mind either way i just won't be up if he comes that early in the morning. damn i hate it when the phone rings and it's no one important. it's raining today so i'm really hoping i can get a ride to work riding my bike in the rain is hard because it makes it really hard to see. well that's it for right now but i'll probally up-date more later.
"you've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?"
Posted at 09:32 am by xbrokendreamsx
well i just found this site today, pretty cool i'm liking it almost more then dead journal, i need to figure out how it works more though. It's 2am right now and I'm trying to figure out why i'm not sleeping...i'm getting tired though so i may go to bed soon. This weekend was insane, shows friday-sunday. I think that hatebreed/madball was the best out of all of them though, i met some cool people this weekend as well and that's always good. I'm wearing my new hatebreed hoodie today witch everyone thought i was crazy for doing because it's hot out but it's really comfertable and i'm kind of cold right now anyways. i want to go up to killington on friday for a show but i don't think i can get up there...damn i need a car. i'm going to the rebels on the 28th that will be fun and then on october 12th i may go down to the bombshelter in manchester to see blood for blood and others...it's only like 5 minutes from my dad's house so if i get all the deatals worked out i may do that. Ok well this is just pretty much a test entery and i'm sleepy so it's off to bed.
"i want to be good i want to be great i want to be everything except for your mistake"
Posted at 02:05 am by xbrokendreamsx