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Sep 21, 2003
soon to be emo-core song and such...
Don't say anything tonight
I'd rather play out these converstations in my head
and block all your favorite lines from my ears
let's turn out this light and say goodnight
before this turns into something more
something more then it ever will become
your eyes are glazed over hiding the truth
mine are filling with tears as i play dumb
did you really think i'd beleive all those clever lines?
i'm not as stupid as you think
it's so fucking obvious when i hear it from my friends
but don't let it get you down
after all you said everything good must end
but let's end it on good terms
yeah good terms real good fucking terms
just close friends you said
close friends that sleep in the same bed
well i hope it was worth it
years of friendship months of lies
well i hope you regret every minute
and i hope you can never get these words out of your head
i'll never waste so much time on you again
that's it for right now i kind of like it kind of not i'm still in the editing process as well..but anyways that's all for now im going back to the park. peace.
Posted at 01:23 pm by xbrokendreamsx
i should really not be up this early...i actully got up at 8:00 the morning and went to listen to my new cds and my brother took my headphones and switched them with his because his aren't working...that pissed me off because he never leaves my stuff alone it's the same thing where my lava lamp just disapeared when he was the only one home and he somehow gets money for drugs and cigarettes so if you put the two together it makes sense. rasin bran is such a rip off i felt like rasins this morning but we don't have any so i found some rasin bran and figured i'd just do what i normally do and steal all the rasins but there really wasn't that much to steal oh well i supose i can find other food. i kind of broke the freezer and people weren't too happy about it but it wasn't completly my fault i just put stuff in there and i thought it was shut but i guess it wasn't and everything melted and then my mom was trying to say that i avoided telling her about it and i'm just like uh no i just forgot. i don't care if i told her or not i mean it was my mistake so i'll own up to it i would think she would know that about me by now but i guess not. me and emma are susposed to hang out today but i'm not doing anything until i'm a little more awake and i've got to check on my homework and make sure that i have all of it done for monday. i need to go into mary hogan and ask them for their phiolosphy and such for tuesdays class. this week will be good tho, wednesday im going to burlington to get new headphones and thrice cds and to hang out with my friends and of course go to denny's. then sunday is the rebels show and i can't wait for that it's been way too long since i've seen them. grrrr my mom is yelling for me to turn the music down it's not even loud and i mean it shouldn't be loud to her and fuck it's system of a down you can't play them quiet inless it's after the first cd then play them as quiet as you want. i don't know i love this first cd but the others just aren't really that great i think their politics are cool but other then that i don't like much about them. anyways i'm just going on about nothing now so i'm going to go and find some internet quizzes to take cause i'm bored. peace.
Posted at 10:11 am by xbrokendreamsx
Sep 19, 2003
thrice is my voice mail message now!
man what a good ending to what was looking to be an incredbly crappy night. everyone is going to have to call my voice mail now and listen to the thirce song :) hahahahaha and they can just hang up a lot of times or finish the song ;) ahahahahaha. i'm going to buy those thrice cds tommrow or wedneday depending on if the sound soure has them or not. i'm somewhat sleepy but i'm going to finsih talking to a few people before i go to bed. wow people are being really nice to me, everyone seemed like they were mad earlier tonight but now everyones being nice it's pretty cool
Posted at 01:07 am by xbrokendreamsx
Sep 18, 2003
and you could be my punk rock princess and i would be your garage band king..something something i would be your herion...
ok does anyone else not see the irony in this? the guy's into this girl and says he's going to be her herion well herion slowly kills you so what's that saying that if she gets involved she's going to die. but do people put these two together oh no they just say what a cute song it is...off of me analizing music too much i'm quite bored right now and i'm kind of wishing i would have taken emma up on the offer to hang out tonight but oh well what can you do? I'm going into burlington next wednesday i'm actully really looking forward to it probally because i haven't been there in a while and i'll get to hang out with lots of people and stuff, i hope mike can come. oh i've got to ask jessica if she still wants to go to the blood for blood show and if so who is going to drive and such. i'm going to get as many people that will fit in the car to go to that one and were going to take over my dad's house i'll be like to make up for everything you didn't do you can let my friends crash at your house for the night. oh during christmas break i will have the house to myself for at least a few days because we can't go to maine for thanksgiving and i told my mom there was no way i was going for xmas because i've already got plans. then she said that i could just stay here so i don't know if my bro will be here or not but that doesn't really matter anyways that means during xmas break everyone can crash at my house and such and hang out and do whatever i'll think of something more entertaining when it gets closer to xmas. but anyways that was cool to hear because my mom's on this whole thing about no one can spend the night if she doesn't know them well and i'm just like uh no, everyone crashes at my house that's why i live here. oooh i have to call the goat and see when she's got classes because i may be hanging out around the caselton/rutvegas area next week. i actully finished the main part of my homework everyone should be really proud of me for that. i still have some other stuff to do but i need to go to the center and get their philosphy thing to do the rest of it. well that's it for right now i'll probally up-date a couple more times tonight. peace.
Posted at 09:49 pm by xbrokendreamsx
you know what i'm missing tonight? most precious blood :( i'm so un-happy about that it's the second time i've missed them but i supose i'll live...anyways i found some lyrics by some bands that i liked so instead of the same old stuff i useally write i figured i would post them.
well love's a bitch and all realationships end -rufio
everybodys looking for that something they can hold on to while tripping over our own words in self dug graves in an excuse to fall -further seems forever
well i'm a wreck i really can't explain it but i hear the music when i look at you -mae
you could slit my throat and with one last gasping breath i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt -taking back sunday
"i am a satellite never getting signals right. you are a constellation. i can barely make you out tonight. the city lights are burning too bright" - The Lawrence Arms
"The sidewalks are watching me think about you" - The Weakerthans
"Driving in your car, miss the stop sign, fall in love, just to get knocked out. " – Thursday
"you would rather bleed than be without her, gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ears, replaced with lackluster memories you cry, your screams play in your empty room."-atreyu
if looks could really kill then my profession would be staring- brand new
There's a beautiful sky tonight and
if you were by my side then we could share it but you are gone.
So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars
cause nothing matters anymore.
If I could only see you now for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
What has he got that I don't have?
Is it his brown eyes?
I know blue eyes get boring but I'll wear dark glasses all the time and
hey if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes.
-saves the day - sell my old clothes im off to heaven
i can't beleive i'm actully quoting saves the day...ah fuck but this is well put
"you're the song that writes a story, but leaves a lot to read, you're the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing from me..." The Closest Thing by The Juliana Theory
"I guess im giving up on love yea, cuz it really kind of sucks" -The Ataris
"Take this rose and stop the bleeding, my broken heart is on my sleeve" - 5 days ahead
"I'll Sleep Long And Well Tonight.. Cuz In Dreams Your In My Sight, And With Eyelids Shut.. Im Not Lonely Anymore, And Everything Within The World Is Right" - Unsung Zeros
"When I'm talking to myself I'd always rather be talking to you" --Brand New
heres how to solve problems, if someone pushes you, hit them, if someone hits you, stab them, if someone stabs you, shoot them, if someone shoots you find all their oil reserves and bomb the hell out of their country -mitch
i was afraid i was going to have to set your room on fire before you got the hint -fletch
people are like stained glass windows they sparkle and shine when the sun is out but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is reviled only if thier is a light within -elizabeth kubler ross
that is not dead which can eternial lie and with starnge eons even death may die -hp lovecraft
the greatest harm can result from the best intentions -stone of tears
those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music -nitiztche
there's an army on the dance floor it's a fashion with a gun my love in a room without a door a kiss is not enough -rj butler
Posted at 08:42 pm by xbrokendreamsx
im wearing my hatebreed hoodie :)
i'm so tired right now the bike ride home was particually hard because of the wind but somhow i made it home sooner then i thought. i'm susposed to be in class right now but honsetly i didn't feel up to it and it's not an important one anyways i'm just really tired and was kind of down for no real reason so i thought instead of letting myself get even worse i'd just go home, it's helping i'm doing better then i was at work so that's good and i'm not so tired anymore. hungry though i'm actully home for dinner witch is good because that doesn't happen very often. i'm really glad tommrow is friday that means i can actully relax for a little while if i get some of my energy back i'm going to do all my homework tonight so that i don't have to worry about it all weekend. haha the person on the weakist link doesn't know the answer and i do! it's actully a nirvana question and that's why i knew it. i wasn't watching it but it's on the tv in the other room. its actully pretty funny but i don't really like the show...it's cold i'm getting my hoodie. i love this one (my hatebreed one) it's my favorite. wow it's really pathetic i have nothing better to talk about then my hoodie lol....
Posted at 06:06 pm by xbrokendreamsx
there's so much on my mind it's tearing me apart....
Posted at 01:22 am by xbrokendreamsx
yay i got a lot of new bands to listen to tonight...i was t alking to mike and asked him for some good bands to download because me acting like my typical self has gotten sick of listening to the same old stuff and to my surpirse he told me bands that i had never heard of. this is really cool, most people just tell me bands i know so anyways i'm in the process of downloading them and from what i've heard so far he's got really good taste in music. i'm sleepy now i wasn't before but i am now for some reason. i'm not looking forward to work tommrow i want to stay home and uh play guitar! and talk to people but it's ok i like the kids. i'm going into burlington wednesday witch will be cool i don't know who else is coming but so far i think brian and emma are defently coming and mike says if he can get the money then he will witch i hope he does. i really should start my homework...i think i'll at least do monday night oooooh shit i have homework for thursdays class damn it damn it damn it i forgot all about that well i guess i should stop going on in this and get working huh?
~lend me your ear and i'll tell you about the things i feel open your heart and i'll tell you why i'm torn apart lend me your heart and we'll go chase down a falling star give me your hand because it takes that fire to understand when was the last time that you felt high oh you were the best thing i ever felt i don't need you to fix me i just need you to listen~
sleepless and cold
i wish you were right by my side
queit and alone these thoughts go un-heard
and this could be the best thing
the best thing we could ever know
but my tounge stays tied
and these thoughts remain only in my mind
as the cold wind surrounds me
the comfort of sister hazel only can last so long
i'm screaming as loud as i can
but it's coming out only as a whisper
i lock my thoughts away inside a broken heart
it may be too soon to heal for this pain to fade
tell me what your thinking tonight
about anything anything at all
and maye you could read my mind
and know i'm falling...
falling faster each day each time we talk
i'm so close to hitting the ground
will you be the one to stop me?
yeah i think this sucks it needs a lot of work but oh well
Posted at 01:01 am by xbrokendreamsx
Sep 17, 2003
lets see if this works....i really have no life...
%20t i want to take the bullet, the one aimed straight for your heart, i want to meet the wolves halfway, and let them tear me apart. this is the way they do it here.
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The Usual Stuff
Name: Kate, Katie either one works fine
Birthday: november 7th, 1984
Age: 18
Nicknames: sid, sidney
Zodiac sign: scorpion
Sex: female
Friends
Your best friend: i like all my friends, i wouldn't want to pick just one
Craziest: jon...that kid is insane
Loudest: me and emma when were together
Cutest: hehehehe i know and you don't :p
Friend with the best hair: brian's devil lock thingy is pretty cool
Friend you trust with all your secrets: brian, jessica
Most understanding: all of them are pretty understanding for the most part
Last friend you went to the movies with: brian
Happiest: charlie
Funniest: it all depends on the person's mood so it vary's
Weirdest: none of them really were all strange in some way or another
Scariest: none of my friends are that scary
Most outgoing: emma or lina
Least outgoing: lance maybe? i don't know
Spends the night at your house the most: either lance or brian or jessica if she's not at school...lots of people just crash on my floor
Has the cutest brother/sister: umm..none of them, i think jessica's brother is smart as hell but he's not really pretty
Friend you would most likely die for: don't know
Stuff
Do you have any tattoos? If so, what of?: not yet but i'm thinking about getting the X's on my arm, stars on my back and something that says poison with a rose underneath it
What's the last thing you bought?: lunch
Do you have a job? If so, where?: yup i work with kids 4-12
What was your most embarrassing moment?: oh man there are so many, the time me and jessica were talking about a band right in front of the band memeber but we didn't know he was in the band. the time we were arguing weither or not gavin or the roadie was "hotter" and they were the same person. i could go on for a while on this one
Last 4 digits of the last phone you dialed: 4292
What is in your pockets right now?: my paycheck and mike's screen name...gotta put these in the wash tonight
What was the happiest moment in your life?: there's been a lot so i don't want to narrow it down to one
Have you ever egged a house?: nope
Whose?: n/a
Who is your role model?: no one really but i like people like kurt cobain, sid vicious
What's your favorite holiday?: halloween or christmas
When is the last time you stayed up all night?: last night
What is your favorite book?: the birth of tragedy through the spirt of music
Who is your favorite author?: nitiziche
Where did you have your last birthday party?: a very long time ago
Who came?: i don't really remember
Who has changed your life the most for the better?: all my friends have had (for the most part) a postive affect on my life but i'm going to say mikey X or spencer because they were the two who i found out what straight was from
What's your favorite song?: right now it's "the artist in the ambulance" by thirce
What's your favorite cd?: hmm...i'm particuallry liking this hatebreed one
What are your favorite pizza toppings?: pinapple or ham or bacon
Where do you order pizza from the most?: neil and otto's cause they deliver
Have you ever been in the hospital for more than a day?: nope
How many days is your record for time spent in a hospital?: a few hours
Why did you have to go to the hospital?: don't want to get into it
How long has it been since you went to the mall?: 3 or so weeks
What's the last movie you saw in a theater?: how to deal? inless you count the drive in then it would be freddy vs jason
What's the last movie you rented?: national lampoons van wilder
Do you like to write poetry?: yes
Do you like to read poetry?: yes
Have you ever written a song?: yes
After you read it to yourself did it sound stupid?: actully for once i liked it
What's your favorite band?: nirvana, the clash, poison, thrice, taking back sunday, sister hazel, tantric, motley crue, skid row, hatebreed, madball, anthrax, slayer, murderdolls, days of the new, the pist, jackson browne
Who is your favorite solo singer?: chris from dashboard
If you suffocate a smurf, what color does he turn?: hehehehe bill looks like a smurf
Do you believe in ghosts?: yes
Have you ever seen a ghost?: when i was little, if you want to know the story behind this just ask
What is your favorite ride at the fair?: the scrambler
What is your favorite inside joke you have with a friend?: gavin vs the roadie or the showoff incidnet
Name the people who know and understand that inside joke: jessica
Have you ever thrown a party in which complete strangers have attended?: sometimes
Was there a guy named True there?: uh no
Would you ever name your kid True?: no
Would you make fun of some1 if you knew their name was True?: uh no
Do you look more like your mom or your dad?: neither really, they both have dark hair and eyes and i have blonde hair and blue eyes
Are you an only child?: no i have a younger brother
Do you have any brothers or sisters?: yes a brother
Their names: mike
Their ages: 16 almost 17
What color is your computer?: grey
What is your favorite color of ink to write in?: black
Would you rather write in pen or pencil?: pen
How tall are you? 5'5
What's your name again?: kate
Do you believe in God?: no
Do you pray often?: never
What's your biggest fear?: needles
Do you believe in love at first sight?: unlikly but yeah
Have you ever been in a car accident?: just minor stuff
Who was driving?: my teacher
Did anybody not survive?: nope it was just something small
What is your lucky number?: 7 and 11
Do you still believe in the tooth fairy?: yes i do damn it stop telling me it's not true your killing my dreams! nah i'm just kidding i don't
Does the tooth fairy still give you money?: used to
If so, did someone knock out your teeth?: nope
Who is your favorite family member?: my uncle greg
What is your favorite breed of dog?: i like dalmations and begales and lab/sheppard mixes
What is your favorite name for a dog?: sidney or bruno
What is your favorite name for a cat?: gaberelle
Have you ever been drunk?: yeah
Have you ever gotten high?: yeah
Have you ever been on the radio?: yeah
Have you ever been on TV?: uh my high school graduation was on tv
Have you ever been in a movie?: only things that my friends have made
Who is your favorite actress?: don't have one
Who is your favorite actor?: matthew lillard
Do you have a cellphone?: yes i do
Do you have a pager?: nope
What's the worst thing you've ever done?: i don't know
Why are all the fun things illegal?: there not...at least not to me
What's your favorite quote?: that is not dead which can eternial lie and with starnge eons even death may die -hp lovecraft
the greatest harm can result from the best intentions -stone of tears
poison is the greatest band in the world and if cc or bret ever oftered it to me i would take it up the ass for them -brian...hahahaha
there is no happiness without tears no life without death beware i'm going to make you cry -the red spider
remember my name you'll be screaming it later -ballz
What's your favorite flavor of icecream?: cookie dough or cherry garcia
Who is your favorite person to talk to offline?: i like talking to anyone
Who is your favorite person to talk to online?: same as before
Who do you wish you were talking to right now?: anyone
Do you have any nicknames that you liked that your friends no longer use? If so, name them: umm..not really actully
Who is your hero?: gg allen! haha
What do you think of racism?: it's ignorant and i hate it
Are you racist?: no
What is your favorite day of the week?: wednesdays...no class
What is your least favorite day of the week?: tuesdays
Do you like rain?: yup
Do you think lightning is awesome?: yup
What is your favorite word?: hardcore
If you could visit any country, where would you go?: england, austraila, italy
How long would you want to stay?: until i got bored
Who would you want to take with you?: everyone!
How old do you act?: depends on my mood
How old is your best friend?: 804050...as skot says
How old does your best friend act?: ...
When you were young what did you want to be when you grew up?: a teacher or a musician
What do you want to be now?: a teacher or a musician
Do you think you were an adorable little kid?: i was a strange little kid
What were the names of your imaginary friends?: cheddar and bopper
Do you have any pennies sitting on your computer desk?: nope
What is the most unique thing about your bedroom?: my lyrics i supose
Do you have a black light?: yup
Do you have a strobe light?: nope
Do you have glow-in-the-dark stars?: yeah i love stars
Do you have anything that glows in the dark?: just the stars
What color is your pillow case?: blue
What is your favorite thing to wear to bed?: my skully pants and my poison shirt
Do you like Pepsi or Coke better?: pepsi
Can you tell a difference?: a little
What are you thinking about right now?: :) something good about someone
What is your favorite song to listen to when you are mad?: anything by hatebreed
What is the last song you listened to?: the murderdolls "grave robbing usa"
What is your favorite movie?: the crow
What is your dream car?: 79 camaro
How many times have you had the chicken pox?: just once
When was the last time you brushed your teeth?: this morning
What is your middle name?: elizabeth
What is your favorite emotion?: happiness
What is your favorite TV show?: dead like me
What is the stupidest thing you've ever heard somebody say?: green day there from england right? haha nah that's probally not the stupidist but it was funny.
How many cds do you own?: over 300
When you go to the movies do you throw stuff at people?: if i feel like it
When you go to the movies do you throw stuff at the movie screen?: no not really
How many times have you been kicked out of the movies?: nope
Have you ever been kicked out of a grocery store?: haha almost
What annoys you the most?: intolerance and boy bands
What's your favorite season?: fall
What's your favorite subject in school?: english
What's your least favorite subject in school?: math
Who is your all-time favorite teacher?: i liked sue a lot
What school do you go to?: ccv
What is the mascot at your school? i don't think we have one
What grade are you in?: freshman in college
What grade are you supposed to be in?: sphomore in college (had 2 years of preschool)
What is your favorite song?: i think i already answered this
What song reminds you of yourself?: hmm in genral hatebreed "you're never alone"
What is your favorite flavor of skittles?: the tropical ones
Would you rather have friendship or love?: why can't you have both?
What makes you nervous?: trying to say the right things
Describe yourself in five words: straight-edge, musician, nice, hyper, crazy
If you knew the truth was gonna hurt you would you still wanna hear it?: yes
Do long distance relationships work?: if both people are on agreement about everything in the relationship then yes
Would you change yourself to make someone else happy?: most likly no but it would depend on what they were asking
What one thing makes you happy?: my guitar
What phrase or saying do you use the most?: ______ wants ______ hardcore
What's your favorite scary movie?: the first freddy one
What would you do with a million dollars?: give a lot of it to some of the kids families i work with who have hardly any money
If your house was burning down and you could only take one thing with you, what would you take?: my lyrics and my pictures
Were you shocked when you heard Princess Diana died?: not really
Who is the biggest flirt you know?: jimmer
Do they ever flirt with your crush?: i don't think he's into guys so no
Do you ever want to hurt them?: haha no jimmer's like another brother to me
Do they know you like that person?: probally not i haven't talked to him for a while because he moved
Are you glad this survey is over?: sure but now i need something else to do
Posted at 11:20 pm by xbrokendreamsx
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