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I'm kate, 18 and from vermont. I'll have a pic soon hopefully. As for me I like going to concerts, hanging out with friends and playing bass and guitar. Bands that don't suck: anthrax poison thrice brand new river city rebels oar dashboard confessional cannibal corpse soulfly morphues killswitch engage sworn enemy bon jovi the pist "there's an army on the dance floor it's a fashion with a gun my love in a room without a door a kiss is not enough"



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Oct 7, 2003

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Get me far away or at least as far as this car will take Dont hold this against me Ive already said Im sorry

ive been thinking id like to see your eyes open real wide the min you see me but if you dont come thru i wouldnt wait for you i understand that every1 goes disapearing into that greater grey that covers over everyday and hovers in the distance ive been up all night i might sleep all day get your dreams just right then let em slip away

Tomorrow we'll wake up in time to stop this double suicide through kisses laced with cyanide...

So stop me now
Stop my thoughts cause you're killin me
But you don't know
Even though we've grown apart
I'll still be there for you
Cause I don't wanna be just a memory to you

-aim profile...don't want to forget this but want to change my profile...hence it ended up here

Posted at 12:16 am by xbrokendreamsx
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waiting...

finally i'm done with all my homework, it seems redundent though, the minute i finsih all my assinments for the week it's time to go back to class and get a whole new list of things that i will have to do. I found out that UVM you need 30 credits to be considered a transfer student so well fuck that i'm not going to have 30 credits at the end of this year and there's no way i'm staying in middlebury another year. so it looks like it's champlain or ccv in burlington because wiether i get into school there or not i'm living in burlington next year. I'm up waiting for brian to come now, i'm not really sure when he's going to get here since i'm not sure what time he got out of work but it's midnight right now so i'm hoping it's soon. No one is online witch is strange but oh well guess i'll talk to everyone tommrow, i may be up in burlington..ah damn it i meant to tell mike that too and of course i don't have his number damn well there's this weeked i suspose. if brad comes online i'll talk ask him about hanging out i just don't want to feel like he has to all the time..i don't want to make it seem like he needs to hang out with me and whoever everyime we were in burlington not that i'm complaining that's defently the last thing on my mind, i love having him around i just don't want him to feel like he has to or anything like that. well i'm off i suspose nothing too interesting happened today so nothing to say. peace.

Posted at 12:01 am by xbrokendreamsx
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Oct 6, 2003

still not sleeping

12:57 am:

watching the clock
as the minutes turn to hours as they fade away

sitting alone it's almost one

and you're not here.
so fake a smile so i can sleep tonight

say the words that make you sleep tonight
pretend this silence wasn't anything
and hide the tears with black
as my heart beats faster with each word
but you dont care
and i dont think i will tonight

wordless i saw you fade into the past
a memory of feelings that didn't last

those words dont come so eaisly today
you take my hand
im screaming to let go not tonight
this isnt loud enough for you to hear

but it was never loud enough
laughing you hold onto my eyes
why can't i look away
just tonight tonight let me sleep
you mean nothing

so much for lies

Posted at 01:12 am by xbrokendreamsx
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so kiss me hard cause this will be the last time that i let you...

well it's midnight and i'm still up...probally will be for a while longer actully. i should be doing homework or something but i'm not feeling up to it. I saw Joe today, that was...well akward. i haven't talked to him in a while and he was just like so who's the guy you've been with latley? and i'm just like uh i hang around with a lot of guys who do you mean? and he was like well you don't tend to hold hands with just friends so that one and i'm just like uhh...how long ago was this? it must have been a long time ago but who knows i just shurgged and changed the subject. haha i'm good at that i suspose. he makes me uncomfertable a lot, like he was telling me how him and his friends had gotten in fights and kept refering to violence and beating people up and i'm not really into that whole macho guy stuff. i mean i think it's cool when a guy will stand up for his friends and will get involved when he has to but not enjoy doing it or go around looking for kids to fight. Also he was telling me how he went out to dinner with his friends last night and they wouldn't let him drink cause he was driving and he was all pissed off about that and that makes me kind of nervous to go anywheres alone with him. it was just so weird cause we haven't talked in such a long time and he just acted like it was all good and nothing had happened. ah he confuses me. oh well tho i'm not going to waste my time worrying about it, if he wants to be friends again sure whatever i beleive in second chances so why not? but i can guarntee i'm not hanging out with him alone for a while. that's the whole trust issue with me if i don't trust someone i won't hang out with them by myself. Corey broke up with emma...neither one of us saw that one coming i still maintain she should go out with this kid matt that we met but i'm not going to push it or anything i mean i think it would be cool but i don't know if that's what she needs right now or what she wants but she does like him i'm just not sure how serious she is about it and such. I guess i'm hanging out with lance this weekend all i can say is were going to burlington and i need to find some other people to hang out with up there. but at least i'll be in burlington, maybe brad will want to hang out again or mike and hopefully i can convince emma to come to that way she can get her mind off of corey hell i know what shes going thru tho (im not going to get into detals cause its not my place to say them) but i can say i know the feeling. hmm...i don't know how much longer i'm going to stay on i'm not feeling too much like just doing nothing so maybe i'll go to sleep even though i'm not really tired...oh well guess there's always tony hawk 3. well i've got some lyrics to add to my AIM thing so i'm off. peace.

Posted at 12:09 am by xbrokendreamsx
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Oct 5, 2003

tired...

i'm so tired right now, i didn't get home until 5 last night from burlington but it was great. i hanged out with emma and then brad when he got out of work and we met matt, who is this insanly cool squatter kid reminded me of herion bob from SLC punk. very nice kid, a bit drunk but nice none the less and he was like (to emma) do you have a date for tonight? and emma was just like no and he's like well i'll be your date and then we can be on a double date but what do people actully do on dates cause i don't really go on them that much. hahahahaha i guess it was more funny in person but he was a nice kid anyways. and of course hanging out with brad is always good, i put my head on his shoulder for a while at denny's witch was cool cause he is comfertable haha :) he reminds me so much of greg...just the way he looks and talks and such i must say it does make me a bit nervous around him not the bad kind of nervous just the kind where i can never think of anything to say. we also met andy from albany who was incredibly drunk and making an ass out of himself but it was funny and then this other kid that emma met who was really drunk and was hitting on her she didn't really like that too much and then some other guy who was obviously a lot older then her was hitting on her too, it seems we were attracting the drunk crowd haha. then we went to denny's because denny's kicks ass. anyways great night, now i actully have to do work tonight and such and i'm not looking forward to that one. i talked to jeremey today witch was good to hear from him because i haven't heard from him a in couple of days and i need to talk to mike now actully because my AIM messed up the last night i was here and i didn't get to go back on to finish talking to him so i have to explain why that happened so he doesn't think i'm mad at him. fuck i'm so tired right now its insane it was great though, i would have defenently stayed out later if anyone else had wanted to despite being tired and just kind of chilling in denny's i was having a good time. anyways i'm off to the park for a while. peace.

Posted at 12:57 pm by xbrokendreamsx
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Oct 3, 2003

...

maybe it's the lack of people i've actully talked to today but i don't know, all of a sudden i just kind of feel down and i don't really know why. i guess i'm just lonly or something like that. i hate this, i wish someone would come online other then brian not that brian isn't good to talk to it's just i'd like to talk to some other people as well. maybe i'm just tired or something but i hope this feeling is gone before tommrow i don't like it. goat's back from college and were probally going to hang out some day after work. it looks like i'll be up in burlington on wednesday so that would be good i'd like to see some people around that aera. i imagine it's going to be quite a long night unfourntly, lets hope something gets me out of this mood relitivly soon.

Posted at 11:55 pm by xbrokendreamsx
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bored

well i'm home, not in burlington grrrr oh well next week and the weekend after but i've got to get all the deatals of that worked out. i finally downloaded "promise" by matchbook romance (if anyone was wondering it was the song i quoted before) it's really amazing, the lyrics got to me and i loved it and the music now just makes it even better. it doesn't help this whole nostalgia feeling of mine but yet i have to admit i can relate to that stars verse exactly. and i'm sure the person it was meant for will too but he'll never know/read this. oh well i suppose. damn i really wanted to be in burlington tonight i wanted to hang out with some people instead of sitting here being bored and having my brother and his friends get stoned and act stupid so if anyone reads this and has a car come pick me up or something i don't care what we do (for the most part) i just want to get out of here. i've got this one thought on my mind of apologizing i never say what i'm thinking and for being so queit but it's complacated why and honsetly i don't want to get into it and it was a little while ago anyways. i'm listening to the lost prophets right now i'm really liking this one song called the fake sound of progrsess...pretty good and such thanks to jeremey for reminding me of them. oooh mike sent me a really cool lyric to a poison the well song if i get around to it i'll put it in here it was cool. i feel asleep this afternoon witch surprised me cause i never fall asleep in the afternoon....anyways i don't feel much like writing so i'm going to go kill time on other sites. peace.

Posted at 07:45 pm by xbrokendreamsx
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i have found something new to enterain me...

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

Posted at 04:41 pm by xbrokendreamsx
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Oct 2, 2003

third season

third season song that really has no relivance to my life at the moment but i can relate hence past experiences and such but felt like putting it in anyways.

did you think that i would just disaper
did you think my life would end
now that your not here
every night before i go to sleep
i think of how things used to be
before i kissed you and you said
it was too soon to be with me
and i know that you dont give a shit
you dont make an effort to talk to me
is there something i dont get
every time that i look at your profile
i see your quotes and inside jokes and smiles
and remeber a time when they were all for me
i never wanted to scare you away
i guess i didnt know what to say
i held your hand when you said
you would need some time to get used to me
and it seems like only yesterday
when i walked up your driveway for the first time
you held your hand out and smilied
and said my name is...
do you think that i would be more cool
if i was a lead singer or if i got a few tattoos

maybe i was just not old enough
should i start working out and actreal tough
i guess i should have waited when you said we shouldnt rushed
i can ruin relationships on my own
so can you
guess we should have known
turn off the light it's 4:00 and i feel like going home
did you think that i
would just disapear?

Posted at 11:55 pm by xbrokendreamsx
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nothing nice is cool

hahahaha gotta love nothingnice.com...this isn't recent and there are probally funnier ones but this one reminded me of a friend of mine lol

Posted at 12:54 am by xbrokendreamsx
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