ok so i'm feeling a little better now...actully a lot better but that's alright. i kind of forgot about feeling bad really just cause people were making me laugh and i wasn't listening to so much emo...ah i want to say everything that's on my mind and i can't because i'm too scared to do that and i lost my chance tonight for reasons i don't want to get into ok fuck this i'm not going to think anymore tonight i am going to the park because i can't sleep. peace.