Entry: so kiss me hard cause this will be the last time that i let you... Oct 6, 2003
well it's midnight and i'm still up...probally will be for a while longer actully. i should be doing homework or something but i'm not feeling up to it. I saw Joe today, that was...well akward. i haven't talked to him in a while and he was just like so who's the guy you've been with latley? and i'm just like uh i hang around with a lot of guys who do you mean? and he was like well you don't tend to hold hands with just friends so that one and i'm just like uhh...how long ago was this? it must have been a long time ago but who knows i just shurgged and changed the subject. haha i'm good at that i suspose. he makes me uncomfertable a lot, like he was telling me how him and his friends had gotten in fights and kept refering to violence and beating people up and i'm not really into that whole macho guy stuff. i mean i think it's cool when a guy will stand up for his friends and will get involved when he has to but not enjoy doing it or go around looking for kids to fight. Also he was telling me how he went out to dinner with his friends last night and they wouldn't let him drink cause he was driving and he was all pissed off about that and that makes me kind of nervous to go anywheres alone with him. it was just so weird cause we haven't talked in such a long time and he just acted like it was all good and nothing had happened. ah he confuses me. oh well tho i'm not going to waste my time worrying about it, if he wants to be friends again sure whatever i beleive in second chances so why not? but i can guarntee i'm not hanging out with him alone for a while. that's the whole trust issue with me if i don't trust someone i won't hang out with them by myself. Corey broke up with emma...neither one of us saw that one coming i still maintain she should go out with this kid matt that we met but i'm not going to push it or anything i mean i think it would be cool but i don't know if that's what she needs right now or what she wants but she does like him i'm just not sure how serious she is about it and such. I guess i'm hanging out with lance this weekend all i can say is were going to burlington and i need to find some other people to hang out with up there. but at least i'll be in burlington, maybe brad will want to hang out again or mike and hopefully i can convince emma to come to that way she can get her mind off of corey hell i know what shes going thru tho (im not going to get into detals cause its not my place to say them) but i can say i know the feeling. hmm...i don't know how much longer i'm going to stay on i'm not feeling too much like just doing nothing so maybe i'll go to sleep even though i'm not really tired...oh well guess there's always tony hawk 3. well i've got some lyrics to add to my AIM thing so i'm off. peace.
well it's midnight and i'm still up...probally will be for a while longer actully. i should be doing homework or something but i'm not feeling up to it. I saw Joe today, that was...well akward. i haven't talked to him in a while and he was just like so who's the guy you've been with latley? and i'm just like uh i hang around with a lot of guys who do you mean? and he was like well you don't tend to hold hands with just friends so that one and i'm just like uhh...how long ago was this? it must have been a long time ago but who knows i just shurgged and changed the subject. haha i'm good at that i suspose. he makes me uncomfertable a lot, like he was telling me how him and his friends had gotten in fights and kept refering to violence and beating people up and i'm not really into that whole macho guy stuff. i mean i think it's cool when a guy will stand up for his friends and will get involved when he has to but not enjoy doing it or go around looking for kids to fight. Also he was telling me how he went out to dinner with his friends last night and they wouldn't let him drink cause he was driving and he was all pissed off about that and that makes me kind of nervous to go anywheres alone with him. it was just so weird cause we haven't talked in such a long time and he just acted like it was all good and nothing had happened. ah he confuses me. oh well tho i'm not going to waste my time worrying about it, if he wants to be friends again sure whatever i beleive in second chances so why not? but i can guarntee i'm not hanging out with him alone for a while. that's the whole trust issue with me if i don't trust someone i won't hang out with them by myself. Corey broke up with emma...neither one of us saw that one coming i still maintain she should go out with this kid matt that we met but i'm not going to push it or anything i mean i think it would be cool but i don't know if that's what she needs right now or what she wants but she does like him i'm just not sure how serious she is about it and such. I guess i'm hanging out with lance this weekend all i can say is were going to burlington and i need to find some other people to hang out with up there. but at least i'll be in burlington, maybe brad will want to hang out again or mike and hopefully i can convince emma to come to that way she can get her mind off of corey hell i know what shes going thru tho (im not going to get into detals cause its not my place to say them) but i can say i know the feeling. hmm...i don't know how much longer i'm going to stay on i'm not feeling too much like just doing nothing so maybe i'll go to sleep even though i'm not really tired...oh well guess there's always tony hawk 3. well i've got some lyrics to add to my AIM thing so i'm off. peace. 