i'm not really having that great of a night, and i'm mad at myself because i counted on some of my friends to at least cheer me up a little but once again i gave people more credit then i probally should of. just like with the whole trusting people thing i'm really thinking it would be easier to never trust anyone with my feelings again because in some way or another i end up getting hurt, this proven on saturday. i'm really sick of my friends doing things like this...and it's not all of them, but the ones that seem to mean the most seem to be the ones i can't count on but like i said i guess i should just stop trusting people with my feelings and put it all into my lyrics instead of telling people how i feel. i've got to say though lance has been really supporitve the last couple of days well saturday and tonight. and that is making me feel a little better right now. but anyways that's it for right now i'm hoping i don't feel like this in a little while.