haven't done much today, got up played guitar went to work and came home. now i don't really know what to do, it's been way too long since i've been home before 9 it feels like i have all this free time right now but yet i have nothing to do with it. it's strange it's good to get a break from classes and such. emma wanted me to come over tonight because corey had to work but i didn't feel like it, i like hanging out with her but i really needed some time just to relax and not have class or work to worry about. but we'll hang out sometime soon. i think i'm going to go to the thirft store tommrow on the search for new pants, it's great most of those clothes there still have the tags on them and the most i've paid for a pair of pants is 6$ so that's good and i always seem to find cool stuff there. i mean how many other places are you going to find a nice leather jacket for 20$? its kind of cold out right now but the ride home was great it's been so long since i've actully got outside on my own in the day time. i'm working on a new song unfourntly it's another emo one but if it goes anywheres i may post it in here i may not depending on my mood. i've been trying to update my site but it hasn't been working, i have an idea why though so i'm going to atempt to fix it tonight. by the time i'm done fixing everything on my computer i'm going to know how to do pretty much everything on this i swear it hates me it stops working at least once a week. oh well tho. ah fuck my brother's screwed up again. did i mention that he got suspended? well now he's got two smoking tickets and my mom's already had to pay 510$ for his other ones since he has no job. he'll lose his permit if he doesn't pay them i think my mom should just make him loose the permit maybe it will make him quit maybe not but still she's got to do something. i really hate this it makes living here incredibly hard because i feel like i have to be perfect because my brother screws up so much and if i screw up then my mom gets really pissed and it makes it a lot harder to be here. plus it's like i have to try and solve all of her relationship problems because she tells me about them and i wish i could help i wish i knew what i could do but i don't i have no clue and i feel bad not being able to help but yet i can't always slove my own realtionship problems i mean i've been in relationships before but yet i am only 18 i don't know everything about love hell i don't think i know much about it to begin with. i don't know it's just making it hard to live her but i'll be out in a year hopefully. yet this is what i thought last year but we'll see. anyways that's it for right now i'll probally up-date many more times to do with really nothing to say just out of boredom but for now that's it. peace.